My Baby Story (The Train Wreck)

It early morning on April 11 and I wake up...wet. It felt as if my water broke but I was only 27 weeks pregnant. I was hoping that I had pee'd my pants (I know, strange wish) but really felt like it was my water that had broke. I woke Logan up telling him that I thought we should go to the hospital. We drove to UVRMC somewhat calm, I guess because we were really unsure of what was happening and a little in shock. We checked into Labor & Delivery and they checked to see if it was in fact my water and it was. All of a sudden a million questions and concerns fill my mind, wondering if there was anyway this was all going to work out. The nursing staff was amazing and they explained everything in detail and were very comforting. They told me that the plan would be to keep me pregnant for as long as possible. I couldn't believe this was happening. I didn't know what we would do with Logan still out of town and me bound to the hospital. I worried about Jace and who whould take care of him and how he would deal with all of this. Logan and his brother Brent gave me a blessing and it's hard to explain but I just felt as if everything would be okay. At a time when I felt like the panic would consume me I had this overwhelming sence of peace and a reassurance that things were going to be okay. I know that feeling carried me through.

On the morning of April 14, 2010 the nurse told me that the baby"s heart rate was dropping when I would contract and the doc was coming in to check things out. About 20 minutes later she came back into my room and told me Dr. Dewey wanted them to prep me for an emergencey C-Section. Okay this is when I paniced. I called Logan and told him to get there quick. Let me explain my panic. I was scared to death to deliver a baby this early wondering if he would be okay. AND I couldn't breath. No one knew why I couldn't breath but breathing is kind of an important thing and I was having a really hard time doing it. So they take me and start preparing me (kind frantic). Me in tears I told my nurse that I couldn't do this because I couldn't breath. Everything happened so fast that I felt like I didn't have a chance even think about what was happening. Before I knew it Logan was there. He walked in the door just as they were pulling him out of my belly. The baby cried (good sign), then they rushed him to the NICU. What a nightmare!

Haize Kayden Allred born on April 14, 2010. Weighed 2 lbs. 13 oz 16 in. He was ok...what a relief. He was on a ventilator for 1 day, C-Pap for a couple days then just a nasal canula for a really long time. I left the hospital four days later without my baby. They did let us hold him once before we left which was a blessing.

I went home to heal and to figure out how I would juggle all of this for the next couple months. I took 2 weeks off of work after the baby was born then went back to work part-time so I could extend my leave. At first I felt completed exhausted everyday...wondering how I was going to do this. I would take Jace to the baby sitter go to work for a couple hours then up to the hospital. I would hold him skin-to-skin everyday. Then I would head home to take care of all the other kids.

Haize did great. We just needed him to grow and develop so he could come home a normal baby. I feel very blessed that we didn't run into more problems than we did. It just seems like a miracle that I could have this baby 3 months early and he is alive and well.

We brought Haize home on June 25 after 10 weeks and 2 days in the NICU. What an experience. He came home on oxygen and an apnea monitor, which was inconvenient but okay. He came off of the oxygen a week ago and is doing great. He is such a good baby.

We have all loved having him home.

Way behind

So I haven't updated pictures for a while and have some catching up to do. Here goes....

Justis turned 14 on Halloween. Here he is with his cool pumpkin cake that I made.

Hogle Zoo

Jace and i went to the zoo this summer with Grandma and Grandpa Allred, Auntie Inez, and cousins Dallin & Preston. Jace thought it was pretty neat. Here we are on the classic Hogle Zoo train. Jace wouldn't sit on my lap and wanted to be completely on his own. I had to sneak my arm behind and hold onto his shirt without him knowing.

Oh my Jace LOVED the carousel! As soon as he saw it, that is all he wanted. And was not very happy when he had to get off.

Our Thanksgiving cruise

Thia year we decided to go on a cruise for part of our christmas. So we booked the Mexican Baja cruise which goes to Catalina Island, CA and Ensenada Mexico. We drove there so the boys and I drove to Logan's apartment in Henderson, NV and played for a day or so before leaving for Long beach, CA. While in Vegas we went to the Shark Reef Aquarium at the Mandalay Bay.

After our adventures ion Vegas we drove to Long Beach and boarded our ship the Carnival Paradise. Then we ate....and ate...and ate. Oh did I mention we ate while on our cruise.

Our first stop was Catalina Island. We loved it, thought it was beautiful. There was a little strip of beach right by our dock where we played in the sand for some time. The boys had great fun.

After Justis and tage got their pants and shoes wet we ventured along the island looking for a place to snorkle. We found a place that worked perfect. Logan, Justis, and Tage rented gear and went snorkeling while Jace and I sat on teh rocky shore and threw rocks. Jace was in heaven. After his rock throwing adventure he chased the pigeons around showing them who was boss. Now we all know it's Jace!!

When we went back we had our formal dinner.



The next port was Ensenada and the big atttraction is La Bufadora "the Blowhole" We rode a bus through Mexico for like 45 minutes to see this blow hole which was pretty cool. Then the flea market. We looked for cool stuff to take home and what we found was (what Logan found I should say) wrestling masks like the ones used on Nacho Libre. In fact the guy said that it was the actual mask used in the movie. Can you believe it? The actual mask used in the movie. Wow! How did we get so lucky. Well Logan and Justis had to have one. Oh I forgot to mention, they are fire proof, he even demonstrated this for us. Boy that really sold us. And Logan talked this man down to $25 a piece and we got 2. Boy did we get a deal. (I looked them up on ebay and found them for $13) I thought this was so funny. Logan said, "oh they need the money more than we do". I just think it is funny. I would expect a wrestling mask in Mexico to be like $5.

We really did have a great time. The boys loved being able to eat all the ice cream and hot chocolate they could. Jace really had a good time too, even though he was a lot of work for me and Logan. It was a good way to spend Thanksgiving.

The Big News

I'm pregnant!!! I have gotten a few responses of... "again". Yes again, and for the very last time (yeah). I am a couple days shy of 16 weeks. We are all pretty excited and of course hoping for a girl, but we would be happy with either of course. I'm kinda use to boys, I really don't know what I would do with a girl. Logan and I will be getting a gender untrasound here in the next couple of weeks so I will let the world know then.

So far this pregnancy has been so hard and totally miserable. I was so nauseated and tired for the first 12 weeks. At about 12 weeks my hips started to hurt pretty bad (I feel really old). And we have had a couple other scares. I swear my tummy starts to pooch at conception ( I guess thats what you get having so many kids). Every day I wonder how I am going to make it 24 more weeks.

Okay that is all the complaining I will do.

a thing or two about a thing or two

Oh man what is it about this picture that makes me want to squeeze something. This is so stinkin cute to me, I just can't stand it.

We did a few fun things this summer amidst all the work (yard work that is). We went to bear lake with Logan's family. Of course it was terrible weather but we still managed to have fun. We played on the beach, i nthe water and

went to a show at the Pickleville Playhouse.

Here we are at Canyon View Park feeding the ducks. Of course Jace has no fear and wants ot just get in the water with the ducks.

This summer has been so busy and has flow by. I can't believe that it is October already. We have been working really hard to get our backyard done and it is looking pretty good. He sprayed Hydroseed a little over a week ago and are just hoping that it will grow. If not we will just do it again in the spring. We did go to Bear Lake and have just enjoyed family.

Tulip Festival

At work every quarter we do a team building. This is where we hang out together outside of work. In the past we have done things like shopped, went to movies, boondocks, a picnic up the canyon, etc. This time I thought it would be fun to go to Thanksgiving Point to see the tulip festival. It was beautiful! Walking through the gardens was very peaceful and calming. Everyone should go.

The OUT Program team currently consists of Val (above in the middle) and myself. Linz (in the green) was a member of our staff and still comes around. We tried to get as many of our old staff members to go with us, but it was last minute and it ended up just being the four of us (Jack is shown below). We had a great time.

Val is the Program Manager (my boss) and he is the program. He is the most amazing teacher/counselor I have ever known. He has saved and changed so many lives through his work and has been a great influence in mine as well. I have worked with him now for almost 5 years and feel so lucky to have him as a boss, and blessed to have him as a friend.

Linz came to work for the program about 3 years ago and stayed with us for a year and a half. It didn't take long for us to become good friends. Having Linz to work with made my job so much fun, it didn't feel like work. She really grew to love working there and sometimes comes back to the jail just to hang out. I really do miss working with her but am very grateful that we have stayed close friends.

I had Linz take a picture of me so I could prove that I was really there. You know how it goes, the person taking the pictures is never in any of the pictures.

Jack is Lindsay's year and a half old baby. In the gift shop before we went to the gardens I convinced Linz to buy him a GIANT powder sucker and he ate that thing the entire time in the gardens...and was an angel. He was so cute and so fun to take pictures of.

Easter

Justis and Tage were at their dads this weekend so Logan and I just took it easy.

We hid candy Sunday afternoon and Jace found some.
Balloons are his favorite. Seriously, the cheap stuff is the best.
Jace and his daddy

The Wooden Rocking Horse

So when Logan was a baby his Grandma Leila bought him this rocking horse (originally Bare wood). She stained it and painted eyes on it and put a mop head on the tail. Logan loved this rocking horse and so has every boy after him. We finally brought it to our house for Jace and he loves it. It is so cute to see him play on it,
even
more so because of it's history. Logan was very close with his Grandma and she passed away when he was a teenager so this horse has a lot of sentimental value to him.

Hats

Sooooo
freakin'
cute!!!

Jace hates hats and will only wear them for a second unless it is really cold. When we get them on him we are really excited. Here he forgot that he had a hat on after taking a walk on a cold day.